Saturday, March 05, 2005
4 march 2005
Many things had happened to me recently and seriously speaking I do not know how to handle but only stood at the corner to cry. I know it is very silly of me to do that. Many people told me to stop schooling and concentrate only the subjects that I want to retake but I cant feel sad or even say I look down on own ability.
I really do not how to face my relatives this coming Saturday. When I received my results what surprise me is that both my parents did not scold me and they even ask me what is my next plan. They are still consent about me and this makes me guiltier. Yesterday my father evens ask me to retake and he even plans to hire a private tutor. He told me a lot of things and I had discovered that he is infact very sad that I had obtained such lousy results. Both my eldest cousins also did poorly in their ‘O’ but they did not give up and choose to retake and one of my cousin is in NTU study the course that he want. I know my father want me to face the reality but on the other hand I can’t help to push all the blame on myself. Am I really so stupid that I failed my ‘O’?
God can you teach me how or led me to a answer that I can see a ray of light that can my destination. I am really walking aimlessly. Will I really wasting time on doing things that I don want. Can anyone give me some guidance
Joyce shine on ::4:35 AM::
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