Thursday, June 25, 2009
It had been 2 years since I had stopped updating my blog.
All of the sudden, I went to my blog and this reminds me that whenever I think of that guy, perhaps I can write it down. Whenever I log in to Facebook, I will always search for he, to see what he is doing. As I know he will update photos or write something to share with all his friends. Maybe I am just unable to let go of him after 1 month plus of break up. He keeps asking me to let go but this is not just a few words and you will be able to let go. I believe when you are reading this post, your first response is: time will heal everything but how long will it take for me to let go of him totally? I do not know how much tears I had shed for him? When I had started to love him slowly, he wants to give up this relationship. I just do not understand why things do not work up the way I want it to be. We used to be a loving couple and I thought this will last forever. Things started to change when he started attending school.
Initially I thought I just think too much and we started having quarrel very often till one day he can’t take it that I doubt him and he asked for a break up. If that day I can control my temper and do not pick a fight with him, I am sure we will be a loving couple.
Every night before I go to bed, I will hug the teddy bear that he had given it to me. It is not an ordinary teddy bear but in fact this teddy bear has a meaning. It means that from that day he gave this teddy bear to me, he will love me and will not let me go. This is the day he had decided to love me. This teddy bear has a birthday and it is name under me, she is called Joy. Joy is a very cute teddy bear that I love her to bits. Whenever I am feeling down or miss him, I will hug her and talks to her. Seeing Joy will make me feel that he is beside me. Honestly speaking, I was touched by his action. When I look at the teddy bear, I will start to think of him and giving myself false hope that he will come back to me. Why will I have this kind of thinking?
I really hope he still has feeling for me and will come back to me, I always believe that things happen for a reason. When it had happened, you must think of ways to solve it but don’t dwell for too long. However I had been dwelling on it and giving myself false hope he will be back. Is our love not strong enough to outstands any obstacles? Don’t underestimate the power of love, as long as you still love him, any problems or matter can be solved. But why we can’t solve it together and why must he leave him?
Is it because he know that he will be very busy and he will not have time for me, he choose to give up on this relationship, I remember he once told me that, he want to have a girlfriend only when he has the ability to take care of her, if not he will not commit to a relationship. I hope this is what he is thinking and if we are meant to be together, no matter how far we are, we will still end up being together. Perhaps, this is a test set for us, to let both of us understand each other further before we set to this relationship again. Am I being too naïve to keep thinking he will come back to me again? I hope I am not but on the other hand, I think I am. So what shall I do now? Should I continue waiting or simple just let go off him. He is a very stubborn guy, once he had made a decision, nothing will change his mind.
Anyway I wish him all the best and no matter what, I hope we will still be together.
Joyce shine on ::4:30 PM::
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Monday, November 26, 2007
Many things had happened to me recently. This makes me have no mood to blog. Anyway, friends come and go in our lives so what if they seldom get in contact with, they were once part of your life. This is where memories become priceless.
Life still has to go on but I believe true friends will stay with you. As times goes on, I feel sad that I am leaving Clouet as my contact is going to end soon. I know life still goes on but working there for several months, we have the bonding and now leaving them, naturally you will feel sad. Time will heal everything. In life, we must learn to let go when the time is ripe, then we will know how to treasure it.
In every stage of your life, we will know different kind of friends, but at least we once know each other.
Suddenly why do I feel so emotion, I should be happy that during this period of life, I had made some friends there and every body treat me nice. They treat me like a little girl since I am the youngest.
Hahaha, I think I will update again tml cause it’s time for me to sleep as I need to work tomorrow. Good night and sweet dreams!
Joyce shine on ::11:55 PM::
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Friday, October 26, 2007
Joyce, your perfect pet is a Dog
Hello, Rover! There are no bones about it: You'd be great with a four-legged friend by your side. Friendly and active, just like a pup, you live life to the fullest, and you are happiest when you're living it with people you love. From tossing Frisbees in the park to unwinding during a car ride, you could use a loyal everyday pal to roam with.More of a pack animal than a solitary creature, you're usually known as the group motivator. And people love that you've always got enough energy to take on any challenge that comes your way. Now, the trick is just finding the right breed. Woof!
http://web.tickle.com/tests/kindofpet
Joyce shine on ::1:52 PM::
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Thursday, October 18, 2007
I am updating this blog during my lunch break again. We are lunching in again as its going to rain, at the same time; Denise’s leg is injured so it’s better to be safe that we eat in than go out to eat.
I have nothing to update for today as work today seems okay and no body bully me, you know who I am referring to. Hahaha
Just finish my lunch and Suma, the Indian lady suddenly come over and talk to me telling me I take a very long time to eat finish my lunch. I was thinking, I eat slow, it’s also none of your business. Am I evil, I think so.
Bye friends!
Joyce shine on ::1:54 PM::
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Wednesday, October 17, 2007
I am seriously wondering why do some people in this world is so selfish. I know people normally care about themselves but come on, they are your friends and some people have to give up their sleep just to touch up on their part while others can sleep early or maybe do their own stuff. We never know.
I know I should not write this post but anger is on my head and I need to release it out and I am not that kind of person who can bottle everything to myself. Even if I can, I will post this as I want to remember it when I had calm down. This is a serious case so I must no matter how announce to the whole world. Hey, come on, don’t you think what you had done is really overboard. All you know is care about yourselves; you are human being, so are others. Your school fee is damm cheap leh.
This person’s particular will be kept confidential as this is to protect her identify. Can you imagine I am writing this post during my lunch break. We are lunching in is due to the rain but anyway perhaps we are just plain lazy to go out to eat. Hahahaha.
Anyway, I need to go off as I do not want to continue writing this post. I want my sleep but after lunch I am too full to take a short nap. Read newspaper? Too bad, they are taken by some one in my company to read and they will only return it back after the lunch break. So how am I going to read, I have no choice but to read it at home. All my news is not updated at all. I feel so sad for myself. Joyce is no longer knowledgeable anymore. Hahahah, Joyce is so thick skin. This is my blog, I can write anything that I like. Hahahaha
Joyce shine on ::1:46 PM::
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Saturday, October 13, 2007
This is the second time I update my blog during my lunch break (12th Oct). The reason is simple; Denise is meeting her boyfriend to have lunch. Crystal is joining in as one of my colleague, Helen is getting married in Malaysia, in November so all four of them are discussing in detail on how they are going to bully the groom if I am not wrong.
So I am in the office to update this post. They will be back after 2. Initially I was rather sad that I will have to eat alone but think twice, I can write this juicy new in my blog, isn’t this a good idea.
Wednesday (10th Oct), I met up with Chrissie; I was surprised that Eehwa and Christie are here to have dinner with both of us. We meet at AMK Hub after I had finished work. We ate pepper lunch for dinner. The whole dinner I was busy laughing, I think I am sick but I really can’t recall what is so funny that makes me laugh the whole dinner.
After the dinner, Eehwa and Christie left as they need to go home to finish their project or homework. They have a lot of things to do so they can’t stay for too long.
Joyce shine on ::9:46 PM::
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This is the first time I update my blog at the office openly during my lunch time (8th Oct). All thanks to the heavy rain that makes us have no choice but to lunch in. suddenly I want to update my blog with useless stuff but unfortunately nothing come to my mind. All I want to do is to update and tell everybody I am using my lunch time to write this post.
This week I have nothing to look forward after work as currently no body want to date me out. Friends, come and date me and makes me have something to look forward after work.
For the past several weeks, my friends and I wanted to visit Sujan’s baby boy but all of us can’t accommodate me as I wanted weekends instead of weekdays. My working place is not very accessible to town except my house. Even if I want to go PS, the journey takes me about an hour plus. It takes me going to an hour to reach home after work. So it’s not that I do not want to go out on weekdays but I really do not want all my friends to wait for me for too long just for the sake of dinner and after a while, time for us to go home or should I say, catch the last bus or train.
I like to meet especially on Friday as I do not need to care about going home late or worry that tomorrow need to work. I can sleep late on weekends as time is on my side, I can go out at any time of the day, see, and weekends are better right? Joyce is giving excuses again; she is trying to convince all her friends that her logic works. (Laughing out loud).
Anyway, I got to go already, time for me to start work. I will update when I have the time. I will be back, hahahaha!
Joyce shine on ::9:43 PM::
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Sunday, October 07, 2007
It’s weekend again. I love weekends especially Saturday. Yesterday after work, I went to city hall to meet Ee hwa for dinner. As usual, we took a very long time to finish our dinner. After dinner we heed home, as it is quite late already.
I alighted at Bugis and bus 130 and 145 makes me wait very long, I almost dozed off. I reached home at about 1130 pm plus. Initially I was looking forward to help my friend, crystal to solve her statistics homework so after my shower I took my statistics to read it, hopefully I am able to solve it. However I begin to feel sleepy facing the computer screen, I told myself I must hang on so that I can send to her as soon as possible.
I told Chrissie that I cannot take in through MSN and she ask me to continue tomorrow. Sad to say, I listen to her and sign off MSN but I am not that easily get defeated so I continue to read the statistics textbook and hopefully I can manage to solve her problem. I slept at 2 plus and I even told myself, I can only sleep for 5 hours and continue till I gad finish the entire question. Guess what, I wake up at 9am plus, I was shocked when I look at the clock. How can I not be able to hear the alarm clock! I quickly wash up and continue the question but none I can do. I was so angry with myself. Get A for nothing, my A is to bluff people. Damm it!
Crystal, I’m so sorry that I can’t help you with your statistics. I hope you do not mind at all. When you thanks me in sms, I was so guilty that I did not manage to help you in any way, I am sure you must be feeling sad right, though you did not tell me in sms,
After this incident, I am very determined to learn statistics as I believe what I had learnt in diploma is the basic level. Hope I will succeed this mission. (Laughing out loud).
Joyce shine on ::3:00 AM::
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Monday, October 01, 2007
Today I meet Chrissie to have lunch at Far East plaza. We decided to eat subway but to my disappointment, their services suck to the max. They are supposed to give you sauce but they did not and when u ask them for it, they only give you for the sake of giving it. When you look at the sauce on the bread, the sauce is very little, and Chrissie told me that they might as well don’t give us if they are so unhappy about it. I agree with her totally.
Her sister (Christie) came and joins us for lunch. When I alight at Far East Plaza, Chrissie was sitting at the bus stop waiting for me, what amuse me is that both of us wear the same clothes and, we are like twins. I remember last time when we took neo print, her mother say both of us look alike, and I thought her mother was kidding as we happen to wear the same pair of spectacles. Now her sister also says we look alike just because we wore the same clothes and pants. This is really joke of the day. I seriously think that we are not alike.
After lunch, we take bus 5 to Tiong Bahru and switch train to Vivo city. During the journey, memorise of me going to school early in the morning flash on my mind. All of the sudden, I miss going to school and I envy them that they are students while I am working and can only goes to school next year. Some time after lesson, Chrissie and I will take bus 5 and alight at the opposite Far East Plaza and she will take bus 162 and I will take bus 124 home. Seriously speaking, I really missed the time I spent going home from school. When you lost those particular stuffs, you tend to treasure it more. This sentence really makes sense to me now. I hope next year will come faster so that I can be a student again. What makes me sad is that I need to celebrate my birthday first before I can be a student. This is a reality that nothing can change. It’s not that I don’t like my birthday to come faster, oh come on, who don’t like their birthday. Birthday comes once a year. I will be a year older and till now I really have no idea how am I going to celebrate. I want to make it grand but I really have to idea yet. (Laughing out loud).
Sometimes I really wonder whether I had made a silly mistake by not going to degree this year and choose to study next year. Based on my previous post, friends come and go, so maybe I will make new friends next year. Now what I can do is enjoying my honey moon, which is enjoys working life as much as I can.
When Chrissie and 1 reach Tiong Bahru, we depart with Christie as she is going to west mall to meet her boyfriend, this means we are taking the opposite train to vivo city. During the journey, Chrissie told me we are cartoon, wearing the same clothes. Initially I find it uncomfortable but this shows that Chrissie and I have telepathy. Out of so many clothes we are fated to wear the same clothes, oh this is so funny.
We go vivo city as the company that I am working now, Clouet Trading, is participating an event call the National Heart Fair if I am not wrong. Since we do not have any plans for that day, we decided to meet up and go there to take a look. It was a very hot day and worst both of us are wearing black tee, this makes it worst for both of us.
I decided to look for Ayam Brand booth to find my colleague, Crystal as I know she will be there. When I saw her, she look very tired and her whole face is red like a tomato. She told me morning there are a lot of people so she did not have a lunch and I gave her my cookies that I bought from subway. I hope she had eaten it as I do not want her go hungry just for the event.
We stay here till 4plus as I need to rush home to attend my religion meeting at 5 but I know I will be late. What can I do? Late is better than I did not turn up right. Joyce is giving excuse to shield herself.
My whole Sunday is gone. Meeting from 5pm to about 10pm. Form 5 to 630pm is leaders meeting and there is a hour break for dinner and all 5 of us when downstairs to have our dinner before the 2nd half of the meeting commence. It start at 730pm to 930pm plus. By the time I reach home, it was already 1030 or slightly early. I had a tired and meaningful Sunday. What makes me sad is that tomorrow is Monday and this means I have to goes to work. Monday blues. Instead of resting for tomorrow, here I am, updating my blog.
Anyway, I want to sleep already. Good night!
Joyce shine on ::2:55 PM::
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Friday, September 28, 2007
For a period of time I wanted to update my blog and when I am at home, I totally forgotten what to write, how to begin and this make me been dragging to write something either related to my working life or personal stuffs. To be honest with you, I really have no idea what I am writing till now. (Laughing out loud) I had learnt to give and take. I always believe that in every point of your life, friends come and go. For a period of time you might think that your current friends are very close with you as you see them in school often and you might have the feeling that we will keep in contact after we had graduated. Unfortunately, things don’t go your way. Your so called close friends had ignored you and pretend not to know you. I believe most people will been through this and found this rather familiar. My conclusion is that, friends do not need to have a lot to consider you to be popular or well like. Having too many friends might be a headache too, friends are like flowers, it takes time to grow and blossom into a pretty flower. What kind of flower you want to be, depending on how you take care of it. If you take your friends as granted and as you wish or free then meet up with them, your flower will not be blossom or in fact will die of not enough care and concern.
Till now, some may have already guessed who I am referring to but seriously I am not talking about any people. This post is just how I feel about friends or should I say how people react to their friends. For a period of time I really envy people who have lots of friends but after I had started working, I realised that friends are really hard to maintain, only those are close with u will stay with you and the rest will eventually become strangers. When you see them outside, your brain will eventually tell you that basic manner is a must, at least smile to them and if they ignore you then just blame on the own luck that they ‘pretend’ not to know you.
Anyway, I shall stop here. I had nothing to add on regarding this topic. Good night friends!
Joyce shine on ::4:50 PM::
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Thursday, September 27, 2007
Weekend is around the corner. I am so happy but think twice, sad again as my weekends will have to spent at religion meeting especially on Sunday, almost the whole day will be outside.
Monday will come and this mean, I will have to work again. It’s not that I do not like the working life but I believe people mindset of Monday blue. (Laughing out loud)
Everyday in office I will have the urge to online when I see my boss, Margaret chatting with her colleagues regarding work in MSN but I have to control. I have to tell myself that I cannot online and what happen if Margaret sees me doing things that are not related to work. How am I going to explain and I believed it will leave a very bad impression to her.
Frankly speaking, I really have no idea of me spending time at the office, I must salute myself of able to control my temper and be friendly to one of my colleague. I will not disclose her name here and if you guys are interested to know, ask me personally or through MSN.
Anyway I got to go. I will update again when I have the time. Good bye friends!
Joyce shine on ::11:34 PM::
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Friday, September 21, 2007
I am damm angry with my ex-classmate! Even thought she is not a very close friend of mine after I had graduated. She is bully my close friend who is taking the same course as her now. I will not disclose her name; this is to protect her privacy. If you guys want to know, ask me personally. I just do not understand why pretty face will get privilege in terms of education or others. This is totally unfair to people who are struggling just to get good grades. When do project with her, all she does is cut and paste those that she thinks is relevant to the module. In fact what she produce are rubbish. End up we the rest of the group mates have to help her clear her part and ours. What makes me piss off is that, she think she had done her part and when we need her help she will MIA and refuse to answers ours calls and sms. Some times I will wonder whether she had received the message that passed down to her or not. This kind of feeling is terrible.
When we meet up in school, she really pretends nothing had happen and worst part is, she did not even mention about the progress of the project. This is totally unfair to the rest of the group mates.
She definitely will gain when do project with us, project marks will distribute equally. Most of her results is better than us as we are the one doing the most for the project and all she need to do is stay at home and mug for the examination. When we ask her regarding that particular modules questions, she will tell us she not very sure or she haven’t started revising. Initially I believe her but as time goes by, I felt that all her words cannot be trusted and are bull shit. Believe her you will be the stupid fool.
I believe by now, those who get involved by this matter will know who am I referring to, but to be fair to the rest, if you guys really want to know, please ask me either in MSN or personally.
Anyway I need to go off; tomorrow I still need to work. Joyce, hang on there. Tomorrow is Friday.
For your information, Denise, my nanny is on leave for tomorrow. I bet I will have a boring day at work. Sob sob. Wish me luck. Hope tomorrow can faster be gone. I want my weekends!
Good night!
Joyce shine on ::11:47 AM::
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Saturday, September 01, 2007
Working in Clouet is getting more fun, thanks Denise, (my nanny) for brightening my day in work. I just don’t understand why some people can give lots of excuse just to let themselves free of things that they had done. Excuse me I am only a temp staff and I know nothing about the work loads that they had given me. At least I know that what they had given me I need or should I say I will give my best shot.
Working in Clouet for about three weeks and I had used to sign the time sheet that had prepared by Denise. I think having the specially prepared time sheet is not a bad idea as whenever I need to write the time sheet to sent to me agency I can always use that as a reference. Maybe the first week I am damm angry of the idea of having to write the time in and out at the time sheet but now I had used to it. (Laughing out loud!!)
Anyway, working there is rather fun as when the old women, Cixi dowager bully me, I will tell Denise and we end up laughing together. I felt that time past rather fast after lunch and eventually its time for me to knock off. This is how I spent my each any everyday in office. Hahaha.
Seriously speaking, once in a while I am dragging myself to work as I do not deny the work there is rather boring and dry as you are doing the same old time everyday. Perhaps this is working life. Suddenly I miss going to school and be a student again. Back to my motto again: always be positive and you will see the beautiful side of the world. This is me, always happy go lucky. I always portray an image that I do not have any worries but you are wrong, why I should keep telling everybody my problems. I believe I can solve them all by myself. Nothing is impossible!
Anyway I think I will update again as I am very sleepy now. Good night friends!
Joyce shine on ::2:40 PM::
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Sunday, August 26, 2007
Hello friends,
I had started working for a week. Initially I was very excited but now I am dragging myself to work. The job scope there is super boring; everyday you are doing the same old thing. Yuck! Anyway I will hang on till my contract ended. At first I have a barrier to all the people there bit after working there for a week, I felt that the people there are very nice and friendly especially my nanny Denise. I called her nanny as she is the one who will teach me those that I need to as one of my colleagues (Diana) is going to give birth. So Denise needs to take over her job scope and I will be taking over her work. Diana will back 3 months later and my contract ends when she returns back.
Initially I am not used of waking up early to report to work so for the first 2 days I was late, things started to change after the third day when Denise’s boss which is also my boss want Denise to do a time sheet specially for me. I am required to sign in and out when I reach and leave the company respectively. I felt that they are using their authority on me but as time goes by I begin to feel nothing about signing in and out of the time sheet. If I leave late, this can treat it as a proof that I am leaving the company late and once they sign this, this mean they had acknowledge that they had saw me leaving the company late. See, always be positive and you will see the beautiful side of the world.
When I let them sign the time sheet (prepared by my agency), all I need to do is to copy the time sheet that I had sign back to my time sheet so when I work OT they have to pay me. Till now I did not work OT so obviously they can’t give pick a fight about my pay. Hahaha.
This is all about my job and perhaps I will tell more as I had started working so there is nothing much to share with you all. I can’t tell my job description and the company that I am working for as I believe I have the right to protect the company that I am working. As for job description, maybe when I work for a longer period I will tell you guys in details as now I am still a newbie in that company.
Sorry I got to go already. Good bye!
Joyce shine on ::8:40 AM::
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Saturday, August 18, 2007
Hello, I am back!
I had MIA for a long time. I had finished my exams last week but was too tired to update or even surf net.
Many things had happened to me but now I had totally forgotten. Life still has to go on. Result will be release on October so why panic now. I always believe that if you had study for the examination, nothing will go wrong, only those that last minute study will panic when the day draw nearer to the result. As usual I am a happy go lucky girl, always live life to the fullest, even if I am sad I will not portray an image to everybody that I am sad. Only those that are closed to me will know when I am sad or happy through the way I talk or the action that made by me.
7th month is here again; everywhere you go you will see people burning to the brothers and sisters, praying that they will bless them with a good year ahead. It is better to believe than sorry. Initially I was very scare, everyday countdown the arrival of the 7th month but now I don’t feel anything. I believe if you don’t disturb them they will not disturb you too. For this one month, my parents constantly remind me to come home early. Anyway, my whole family will eat together for dinner so as long as I reach home before 8; I think its okay right. I will still manage to have dinner with them. Going home early is not a problem to me. But once a week I will stay out late, will reach home around 12am. This is not late at all, but my parents will start to nag at me. Sometimes I was wondering, why my sister can do that and why can’t I? I need to go home early and my sister can stay out later without getting a single ranting. This is so unfair! Anyway think on the brighter side, maybe because I am the younger child so they are more worry about me. Hahaha, Joyce is giving excuse now that daddy and mummy dote more on her then her sister. I wonder how my sister will react when she sees this post.
Anyway, I need to go off already. Time for me to eat my dinner. Good bye!
Joyce shine on ::10:50 AM::
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Sunday, June 17, 2007
I quite vexed recently. A lot of things had happened to me which makes me not in a good mood. Firstly education matters. Secondly, I went to tons of interview and it seems like no company want to hire me. Why am I always that unlucky? I did call my ex-boss and ask him if his department need temporary staff and he rejected me. He told me if there is any vacancy he will let me know. Okay.
Anyway I really need a job or else I can forget about advancing my studies. My parents think that I having an easy life like happy go lucky girl who have no problems in everything. In actual fact they are wrong. What is the point of telling when the problems when they cant help me to solve. They will think I don’t know how to think, always ask them for money or etc to buy things and don’t know how to save. Its not that I don’t want to save, I did try but the allowance that they had given me is not enough at ALL.
Okay, enough of my personal life, I do not want to continue it here. Just to conclude, I have lots of problems to solve and I don’t know how I am going to solve it all by myself.
Sometime I wonder why in the first place I did not study hard pr else I will not end it like this. Have to find school myself and worry that no school want me. Am I going to spent my life like this and perhaps 20years down the road I will be what the government call as the low wage worker. I don’t want this to happen to myself.
I want to change my life but the very important thing is I need to get a job as soon as possible so as I can further my studies. This is very important to me. Maybe, because I am not born with a sliver spoon so most of the things that I want; I need to work hard to achieve.
Most of my peers will not understand this as they had not go through this, their parents had set aside a sum of money as education fund for them so they can don’t need to work and slack at home till the time to start school.
Once again, is this call lucky or not, to have a parents who will think everything for them and their children just need to agree on them and go ahead with what their parents had decided. Some may agree that this is good but I myself think that, they need to have their own decision and cannot always rely on their parents. The least things they can do is search for school that they want and consult their parents instead of their parents hunt school for them and tell them this school is good, you should go this school instead of the other. Don’t you think the child do not have a mind of their own?
Anyway I got to go as I have something to do. I will update again if I have the time. Good bye!
Joyce shine on ::7:26 PM::
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Monday, June 04, 2007
I know I had been a long time since I had updated my blog. I was quite lazy to post and at the same time blogging did not come to my mind when I was online. Sorry friends!
Today my mei, Serena send me this few quote that makes me find it rather meaningful that makes me want to share with everybody.
This is what she had sent to me:
When you keep saying you are busy, then you are never free.
When you keep saying you have no time, then you will never have time.
When you keep saying that you will do it tomorrow, then your tomorrow will never come.
This quote is taken from pravsworld.com (inspiring you for a better tomorrow)
Okay I shall stop here as I need to sleep earlier or I might over slept and late for class. Tomorrow I can’t be late as it is MR LAI KENG YEW lesson.
Good night and sweet dream to everybody!
Joyce shine on ::2:30 AM::
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Wednesday, May 02, 2007
After so many months of self-declared missing in action, I’m finally backed to start blogging. I know this post is rather late.
Tribute to the late Mr Ho Chee Koon.
When I was reading this week Sunday times, I was rather shocked to see my secondary one science teacher Mr Ho Chee Koon photo. He had passed away on the 28th April. I remembered clearly that my class was a very noisy class and I don’t know is his fortune to teach us or is my fortune to have patient and caring teacher to teach me. Every science lesson, he will talk in front of the OHP monitor, flashing his notes and explaining all the science theory to us. I remember clearly that, when he touched the physics topic he will explain deep to the topic and when it was chemistry chapter he will just briefly explain the chapters. At that time I was wondering why only physics chapters he will explain so detail but being young at that time I thought I was just being sensitive. When I was in Secondary three did I realise that he is a physics teacher.
At that moment, I fully understand why when I was in secondary one, whenever he teaches physics chapters, he will explain in detail, regardless whether we understand or not. Initially I dislike physics a lot due to personal reasons when I was in secondary three. My closer friends will know the reasons and if you are interested to know the reasons, ask me personally. Thanks!
Mr Ho is a very friendly teacher and I used to tease him whenever I see him in school. He will not get angry but instead he will smile back to you and talks to you. He seldom scold his students no matter how noisy the class is, my class (1T1 2000) is one example. Even thought he only taught me for less than 6 months but at that time my science grades improved tremendous. My fundamental of science knowledge is good all thanks to Mr Ho for guiding me.
When I was secondary three, I told him I dislike physics and score badly for it, he willing spared time to teach me even though he did not teach physics at my batch (both express and normal academic classes).
I shall end here as if I continue to write, I’m afraid I can’t control my tearing from dropping. Mr Ho, you will be remembered by me!
Joyce shine on ::7:50 AM::
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Sunday, February 18, 2007
Hello friends, I’m back. Basically today I don’t have anything to do now. At night after my reunion dinner, I will go Chinatown to countdown for the year of pig. Tonight reunion dinner is steamboat so perhaps I will have to help mum to prepare the ingredients.
Later of the day I will take a nap as tonight I need the energy to sustain me from, sleeping too early, there is a tradition that say, shou ye, it is to help your parent to live longer if you sleep late. Every year without fail, I will shou ye till late 3 plus then I will sleep.
If I don’t take a nap now, I don’t think I will be able to take it as this few weeks I everyday sleep very late and early the morning I need to rush to school.
By the way, I wished everybody, A Happy Lunar New Year. I will update whenever I’m free. I got to go and do some other stuffs before I take my lunch.
Joyce shine on ::4:38 AM::
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Saturday, February 17, 2007
Finally I had the time to update my blog. This few months I was very busy with religion matters, school work and cleaning up my room to welcome the pig year.
I can’t remember the exact details of me spending the last few months cause I’m a rather absent minded girl who don’t like to remember too many stuffs. Suddenly my mind was blank after so many months of not updating my blog. I will try to update my blog whenever I’m free.
Today I did not go to school for OB lesson but instead I went to Beatty for Chinese New Year Celebration. I was rather disappointed with the school management. Can you believe the school make a hard time for the graduated students to visit their teachers. They claimed that they want their teachers to have an enjoyable day and don’t want the us (ex-graduated) students to spoilt their day as they need to come out from the office or the hall to welcome us. The security guards even want us to tell them who are the teachers that we want to visit and whether we had made a pre-appointment with them. What a dumbo school. I can’t believe that they treat us like this. The school management rules are bad to worse. I still remember the security guards ask me whether we have the teacher’s mobile numbers and if have called him or her instead of him (security guards) give them a ring. What an irresponsible guy, he claimed it was the school top management asked him to do that.
He told me this is to protect all the students, at that moment I was so mad that I gave him this reply.
Joyce: So you think we are terrorist attack and once we reached the general office or the toilet, we will place a bomb in to blow up the school? At the moment I really don’t know what was on my mind that makes me talk in that rude way.
We are not given a chance to visit the teachers. I think the security guards can’t handle me so he asked to be excuse to get our Operation Manager (OM), which is none other than Mr Singh to deal with me. Come on la, I’m not scared of him. Our principal, Mr Boon, had given my click to enter the school but just that one of my friend dye her hair so it was impossible for her to get in. this makes ma in a dilemma as my the other friend insisted of entering the school. As expected, I really leave my friend who had dye hair outside the school; I was really very guilty towards her when I leave her there. In the end she SMS me say she will go to Toa Payoh Central to walk around.
My click spent the next 2 hours watching the show. Till now I still feel bad in my heart that I really leave my friend alone. No words can described how I felt at the moment. After the whole event had finished, my click and I spent another hour hanging around in Toa Payoh Central then we walked home.
My day did not end here. I was asked to fetch my mother from work as she wants me to help her carry some groceries home. Being an obedient girl I have to obey her and fetch her home. Whenever I go to her workplace, she will always that this opportunity to buy lots of stuffs and that not all, she will procrastinate and talk with her friends, those who don’t know will think that I look more tired then her even though I don’t work there. Even thought mum is tired she will portray an image that she is not tried and still have the energy or strength to talk with her friends working there. As for me, if I really tired I will be very quiet. Those who know me well or see my tired and sleepy looks will know. I will try to save my energy by not talking a lot or just try to be as quiet as possible. If I’m not tired the real Joyce will appear.
Hey, I think I shall stop here. I’m feeling sleepy now.
Joyce shine on ::9:28 AM::
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Thursday, January 04, 2007
30th of December 2006
Went to downtown east with ex-colleagues and some other friends that I had known through my ex-colleagues. Meet Ailing and Kim Poh at Novena Square taxi stand at 545pm. Zill, my god sister came along with me since that day she happened to have nothing on.
We both had agreed to stay overnight so by the time we had countdown it will be past midnight and transport fees will be rather high as both of us stay very far away from Pasir Ris. Yeah, during holidays I can ask them to help me look for jobs. I’m so glad that I can take this opportunity to gather with me. It makes me day smile.
After countdown, we did not do much expect just drink and chat. We even make friends with our neighbour. I remember some kids not more than 16, was playing with the empty bottles that we had left over. They wanted to light them at the tip of the bottles. I believe they are just being curious but that is not the right thing to do. We had told them not to play with it as it will caused the bottles to expand and break.
After that, we went to sleep as it was ard 4 plus if i'm not wrong.
Joyce shine on ::1:01 PM::
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Sunday, December 24, 2006
Many of the life’s failure are those who do not realise how close they are to success when they gave up. I find this sentence very meaningful so I had decided to write it down in my blog.
This few days, I had the same dream. I dreamt of my marketing paper. More worry for marketing paper then financial accounting paper. This might be due to stress that makes me have this horrible dream. I dreamt that I fail twice for marketing and the school ask me to drop out and don’t study anymore as they claim that I’m the worst student they have ever seen. Lucky all this is just a dream. This show that I am very scared for marketing and I admit I am real scare for that marketing paper. I just hope Mr Lai Keng Yew will not moderate this marketing paper or else I will have to retake it again.
I hope Mr Lai Keng Yew will not teach me any module again. Every marketing lesson, I will panic that he will call me and ask me an alien question. When I don’t know, he will stare at me with his big eyes seriously speaking, his eyes are not that big at all and it’s just slightly bigger than mine. If his eyes are as big as Eehwa’s then he can have the cheeks to stare at people or else just ask other student to answers his question. No big deal that we students can’t answers your marketing question.
I think Eehwa will like his lesson and will look forward to attend his lesson. I admit he is a good lecturer but what I don’t like about him is that, when we student need his help regarding marketing project, he don’t even gives us his office number or email address. When we call him, he expects us to wait for more than two hours. What kind of teacher is that? I called him at 230pm, he can tell me he is busy with his work and he can only meet me at 330pm. That is not all. he want me to give me a call at 330pm and tell him where to meet up, so after 330pm, I gave him a call and I remember his last words is he is coming now so I thought a couple of minutes later he will come out from the office, so I wait outside the office. Finally after half an hour later, he finally come out from the office, I was so mad, my whole group was waiting for me and we are in the hurry to go home to think of ideas to do the project which is due in a few lesson time.
Anyway, I was glad that it was over and I hope he doesn’t teach us other module or else we might face the same problem again. I admit he is an experienced lecturer who knows his work. His marketing is very good, he knows when to relate to the real world and he knows how to be funny and serious. He prefers the guys then the girls. He likes to jokes with guys and I treat his lame jokes as jokes, and nothing else.
It’s getting late and I’m sleepy. Good night everybody.
Joyce shine on ::4:58 PM::
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Monday, December 18, 2006
I just received a call from my senior leader as I did not attend planning meeting which I had earlier promised. Suddenly I was feeling hot and cold. I told myself I must attend but when I open the door to leave the house, it was raining cats and dogs. The wind blow towards my direction and suddenly I was sneezing like no body business. Hence I did not attend and had to stay at home for the entire day, poor me. I look forward for this first planning but too bad I just can’t attend.
There will always have chances for me to attend as I’m currently transferred to another district as their Young Women Division (YWD) leader. I still have plenty to learn from all my senior leaders and members. Initially I was shocked when my leader called me; they assigned me jobs through phone call. I had been given an important task that makes me doubt my own ability. After all, I’m still a newbie so almost everything is new to me.
I got to go and have my dinner. I shall end here. Good bye everybody.
Joyce shine on ::11:48 AM::
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Friday, December 15, 2006
Hello, I’m finally back. Examinations had ended last week. Holidays had started for me but I’m not happy at all. Next year I will have a busy year, all my friends told me to enjoy my holiday as much as I can but I just can’t do it. I don’t think you will understand as you are not me. Mine problems are as huge as a mountain. Perhaps I’m just exaggerating, who knows.
Recently a lot of things had happened to me. I just do not know how and when to start from. School work I had managed to solve them but next year it will happen again. I believe everybody will have stress but too much stress is not a good thing. Able to handle stress is not good either as you tend to be over confidence in yourselves. Thus you will have a bossy character and eventually friends will leave you alone when you need their help.
Friends? Will they be the one you can rely on when you need them? Will close friends leave you when you don’t keep in contact with them? When will they find you, isn’t when they need your help or when they are alone or they are bored. When you ask them like wow you need help then find me for a chit chat and they will say you too never find me. Always want me to find you. Is that what they will tell you and make you guilty that you did not find them. What are the ways to remain as close friends even though both of you seldom meet up? I really don’t know and I’m still seeking for an answer.
Life has to go on even though you don’t have friends. You will not agree with me, who in this earth don’t have a single friend? This person must be weird. Why do I suddenly sound so negative all of the sudden. Having lots of friends is not good too. I still believe that having one or two close friends is enough but what a sad thing; I don’t even have one or close friends who understand me most. That is why I don’t believe in making lots of friends. I have a lot of friends whether in school or religion. In school most of them are hi-bye friends. This is the reality which no matter how you must accept it. Treasure your close friends as you never know what will happen in the future.
Maybe you’re this once close friend will leave you and be with other friend that will be too late. I had this experience plenty of time and it is always the same old person who is doing this to me. Seriously speaking, I’m used to me.
Let’s not talk about this anymore. It will remind me of that close friend. Till now I don’t know whether that close friend treat me as his/her close friend too. Why do I still continue when I had mention to not talk about it anymore.
Anyway I need to go la la land. Eyes need to rest. I will update my blog when I’m free. In the mean time, take care my dear friends. Good night everybody.
Joyce shine on ::5:55 PM::
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Wednesday, November 15, 2006
This few days I was rather tired and restless. Mass revision at night is not good at all. I rather have morning lesson than night lesson. I really wonder how to all the part-timers study night class can take it. Imagine morning, you need to work and evening, you need to leave like let say half an hour earlier to prevent yourselves from being late for class. Classes start at 7pm and end at 10pm. The next day you need to report to work. Don’t you think you are just wasting your time and energy to study?
The worst thing is that you might need to have your dinner after your lesson, which is after 10pm. Like this, you are just telling your brain that you want to gain weight. Perhaps you might not agree with me. You can claim that those who want to study can study during both weekends. I don’t think there will have this type of people who will not go out on either one of the weekends to chill out with their friends or loved ones. So eventually they will not study until examination is around the corner so some may ask their boss for leave like block leave so that they can study peacefully.
I don’t understand why they want to make themselves so pathetic. I just can’t seem to understand why some of the companies want to send their employees to study night classes. I know some after read my blog will say that, it is meant for them to upgrade their skills. From the point of the employers, it is a good way for employees to increase their knowledge. However, employees will have to mug during examination period and at the same time repoet to work as usual. They are human beings and not machines that can operate 24hours a day, machines need rest so let alone human beings.
I shall stop here as I need to get back to study for all my papers. Friends, pray for me, hope I won’t fall sick during this period of time. Good night and sweet dream!
Joyce shine on ::3:48 PM::
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