Monday, December 26, 2005
I was rather upset about the truth that eehwa want to declare the dead of her good riddance. What makes her have this cruel decision? I sincerely hope that she will change her mind but if she really insists of doing this, I will support her. I know she will have her own reason of doing this.
This few days I had been thinking a lot. You can say I really had nothing better to do but I just can’t help it as mind just flashed all the memories that I wanted to be erased.
All of the sudden I miss all my secondary school friends, my former classmates (5N1), teachers and the surroundings. I had spent my teenage life in this school so I believe it is not an easy task to forget all of them in the fastest speed. All the teachers had spent their time and effort to groom me up into a useful people so I can contribute to this society. When I reflect back I realized that I am wasting my time. What had I achieved till now? I can tell you what comes into my mind are all blank.
This Joyce who used to be happy-go-lucky will have problems that she can’t solve. It was strange as I myself can’t believe it too. I always think that nothing is impossible. I will make it a point to change my fate but this time round, I am wrong. I had to depend all on myself and I think no one will be able to help me to overcome all my phobias, problems and everything. Whenever I’m feeling down, all I can think about is to turn to my blog and write them all down in order to make myself be happier. To those who happen to read my blog will think that I’m being crazy or nuts. Why post all those sad memories and why can’t this person write some happy events.
Different people have different point of views so you can’t change the way I think. I just like the way I think and felt. I really do not know what I’m thinking at this time. Maybe god is playing a joke on me or to test my patience. To let me understand more on myself, to have a clear judgment on what I really want in life. I have faith on myself that I will learn from the process and apply on it.
Its time for me to end here as I felt much better after writing stuffs that had bother me for the whole of today. I felt much refresh but it was time to catch some sleep as it was rather late.
Hope everything will turn fine for me. Good night and sweet dreams:)
Joyce shine on ::6:35 PM::
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