Saturday, July 01, 2006
What is lost is lost. You will not come back to me again. The tone that you are talking me tells me everything. Please don’t deny that I’m too sensitive. Perhaps you might not even come to my blog to read what I had written. Even thought I assume you might read but you will not think that what I wrote is all about you. You might think that what I had done is stupid but you are not me so you will not know what I had been through.
Knowing you is my greatest mistake as you had hurt me deeply without you realising it. I don’t want to continue anymore. Let bygones be bygones. Don’t ask me the details I shall not say any further about this matter. I still think that keeping everything in my heart is the best thing that I had done. I don’t want lots of my friends to know. I’m just a ordinary girl so why should I want everybody to know my story or walk into my life. It’s pointless. I just want to be myself. A person that will not tell everybody how am I feeling or what I had done.
Without friends might be a good idea, alone. You can do whatever you like without any company. Maybe I think too much. I should be grateful that I have lots of friends who care about me especially Priscilla. Thanks you for what you had done to me. I’m happy that I know you, girl. I don’t know whether you will read my blog or not but I hope you will read. Sometimes I think that reading my blog you will understand me more compare to me telling you everything. When I’m angry I will post it but not to the extend that I will write everything but at least you know I’m mad about some particular stuffs.
When I’m happy, I will also write them down but again not to the extend of writing them everything here. Some may wonder since you are happy then all the more you should write them down so that others can share the joy with you. You might not like to hear but I don’t like people to truly understand me. The more you don’t understand me, the better.
I may sound weird but this is me, Joyce. Some times I felt that writing everything in a blog is like I purposely want people to know how I spent my day or what I had done in that particular day or time. Sometime I had no choice but to really write them all down as I can’t possible hide all my feeling to myself. I will explode if that continues.
Maybe I tend to think a lot. Thinking is a good way to help my brain to think or analysed stuffs. You need to ask yourself why this happen instead of the other alternatives. It makes my brain to think. I will continue to motivate myself to continue thinking of stuffs and work on it. This may help me become a better person to knowing myself that what I really want.
Have you guys ever wonder why you are born here and what is the purpose of you living in this world. I don’t think it’s as simple as receiving education, being a useful citizen in this society. I believe there is more than that. So what is our purpose of being born here? Do we all have a mission to complete as a human being or just simply live a day as it is. Happy go lucky? I will need to find out what is my purpose and mission of being born in this world. I don’t believe that we are born just for the sake of waiting to die. There is more than that. We all need to really figure out what is our purpose of living here.
Give me time to figure out what is my mission and purpose. Soon I will be able to write it here to let everybody know what I really want in life and heed all the way to my goals. All I need is time to discover this.
It’s getting late. Good night everybody. Tomorrow will be a better day for Joyce. Yeah:)
Joyce shine on ::4:12 PM::
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